The Hunger Games

I'm so amazed, although we've been crazy busy I still managed to finish reading 5 novels since January 1st!  One of which is The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins, I read it in two days :)  Originally, I was reading it because the movie comes out March 23rd, and I wanted to make sure it wasn't all hype.  Well, it's not, it was so difficult to put down and the author does a great job expressing the emotional conflicts the heroine in the story feels.  I just hope Hollywood hasn't ruined a good thing with their spin on the story.

Otherwise things are great although I do miss art school.  But I'll get over that in time.  I'm looking forward to the Renaissance Festival in Deerfield.  I haven't been to one in over a year, those are always fun.

Sherlock Holmes 2

Last week while in Port St. Lucie we decided to have a date night.  We hadn't been out in awhile and needed some fun.  First off, we went to Rave Movie Productions to see Sherlock Holmes 2.  The theater was AMAZING!  Accessible stadium seating, even a ramp to the front row if I so desired, digital projection....when the movie is about to start the screen re-sizes itself, that was so cool.  I couldn't believe that this little hick town (sorry, I will always be a Boston city snob), had such technology!  I was thrilled, especially since we'll be moving there.  I've found places to shop and made a new friend at the mall.  Now to have these people stop staring at me like I'm an alien!

So me...

One of my Christmas gifts from Alan because I'm a thinker, bookworm and LOVE frogs!

So, it's 2012, new year and hopefully it keeps getting better.  This past month we've been in central Florida because Alan's mom has been pretty ill.  While we were there I didn't have much to do but read and think, think and read.  I came to the conclusion that life has been a series of lessons for me.  My marriage fell apart, that wasn't solely  anyone's fault, we're both to blame.  I kept trying to be what I thought would make him happy instead of be me, cutting myself off from my friends which was wrong, in the meantime hating myself.  If you have to change who you are, that's a red flag right there, a HUGE one.  It took a long time to realize that I wasn't living anymore.  I'd promised I'd never change who he was, so when he started drinking again and having interests I couldn't participate in, I felt it was time to go.  I have accepted that even though I'm supposedly brilliant, I wasn't smart enough to make it work.  Oddly enough I have no hard feelings nor do I hate him.  I'm actually proud of his accomplishments.

NOW I'm learning to be me.  Honestly, I scare myself because I have a feisty, fiery spirit.  It'll be fun to see where my life goes now.  Now I'm trying to find my niche :)  Life can resume being interesting....I'M DONE THINKING! LOL

Busy Days!

Finally, a free day!  I've been so busy that I haven't been online much or blogged in MONTHS.   I'm doing great, and so happy with the way my life is going.  I truly am blessed and God is SO AMAZING!  

So much has happened but I'll try to tell you everything.  I was going through a time where all I did was worry and stress, wondering if God really spoke to me.  In my last blog, I said I can't win a battle against God's will.   Guess what? I'm right about that!  I read a novel called "The Shack", it was amazing, and although a work of fiction, it gave me a better understanding of how God works and how we limit Him when we doubt.   Needless to say, I've learned to trust Him more and it's as if a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.   

My next adventure....yes, anything God asks of me feels like an adventure and out of my comfort zone.  One Sunday, my friend Jinky was doing praise and worship.   I suddenly had, what I considered a vision.   In it, I saw myself in front of the congregation singing, while I was singing, angels came down and were singing with me.  It was so beautiful, and with that came a message.  It was time for me to sing.  Sing? Me? I can't sing!  He said "Trust me, I've got this", He told me the song....go figure I'd have to sing a song I hardly knew and I fought Him so long I only had four days to prepare.  By Saturday, I finally had all the words learned and I could "feel" the song.  That Sunday I sang in public for the first time in years.  It was perfect, the power of God hit so strong that everyone was crying.  I sounded exactly like the original artist, I had no clue I had a voice.  I asked God to use me and he did.  Here is that song:

Fast forward to this past week, I sang "In You Alone", then gave my testimony.  Once again, it was amazing and everyone felt it.  I'm so thankful that I'm no longer Job, but allowing God to let me be another Moses.  My life has changed so much and I feel so free just growing in my relationship with Christ.

It has almost been 6 months since I started this new life and I can honestly say I'm very happy.   Alan and I are doing great, and as we both grow closer to God, we grow closer to each other.  We see his parents at least once a month and I love them more and more each time.   Life is so short and I've wasted so much time being unhappy.  Now I'm with my soul mate, and we wasted so much time being apart I pray we have at least 30 years more together.

 

What a day!

Well it's 10:45pm, the ending of awesome day.  Immigration went smoothly, so far so good and the immigration officer was friendly.  It's been so long since I had to be there I'd forgotten that they only look scary and are really sweet to me.  Lunch was an interesting experience as well, we met a group of Christians.  I was told a lot of stuff, same things I'd heard before. I just keep reminding myself how much I'm like Moses, willingly going wherever I'm lead and believing God will equip me to do His will.  I know better than to fight it, I can't win that battle!

What's New?

Well, where do I begin...The van finally has it's new front bumper YAY!  I can finally start looking toward the future and not think of my journey to get here.   Don't get me wrong, everything I have been through happened for a reason.  I've learned and lost, and found myself.  I am who I am, that's all there is to it.  I have lots to be grateful for. I mean, seriously, I should not be alive but I am.  Even if I've made mistakes and bad choices, I've learned from them and I can carry on because of them.

Very Busy Friday

Well, I'm exhausted!  After running around all day, I'm looking forward to a down weekend.   No movie tonight but maybe next week...if we have time.  I'm tired of allergies though, I've never had them so often or so bad, it's really getting on my nerves!  On a happy note, I caught up on Harry Potter, and am halfway through What the Night Knows by Dean Koontz.  Guess I'm settled, I've even started a new cross-stitch.  Well, I'll close with my latest sketch...